Feeling blue today. A day of tears! A whole church full, and the tears are still coming down.Will be even worse next week. Not sure how to handle it but I will.
My church is closing. My mom and dad were married there 40years ago, she was baptized there too. Both my bro and I were baptized and confirmed there, both my boys were baptized there. My mother said she planned on having her funeral there "now what?" she said. A bit of a scary thought but she had everything planned even has her obituary written so I don't have to worry about anything. Crazy!! Even crazier is last month her saying I have a month left for it to happen. She giggled but still not a cool thought. This whole situation really stinks! Makes me so sad! Been through so much, my faith was tested so many times and I kept getting up thanks to my friends and God! God has a plan and as of right now I say his plan sucks! How do you keep the faith when the one thing that is always there for you is gone. Friends come and go, people grow old and pass on, you get a job you loose a job, you move from place to place if you want, you have pets that come and go, economy goes up then it drops, you make money you loose money, you get married you get divorced, you have children and then they grow up and move on. See all the good things that happen and bad things too? Excitements and let down are all part of life. Its normal, its the cycle of life. The one thing that is always there, the one thing you can always count on, the one thing that you believe will never leave is your faith, your church, your god. What do you do and how do you feel when that one thing you totally, whole heartedly trust in seems to crumble? After 125 years of service my church will close its doors. Next Sunday I will walk out the doors of the church holding my children's hands with my mother for the last time. God Why? Whats your plan? It better be good!
I know god loves me, but damn this kinda love hurts like hell! Grrrrr
This my Church! The one place I always felt safe! 
Please say a prayer for my family and all the other families of St. Johns Episcopal Church!
Please say a prayer for my family and all the other families of St. Johns Episcopal Church!THANK YOU!
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Thanks Sid! Next week will be tougher so if I'm off this week and next just know its because of everything going on and nothing with SL. :)
Gina, saying prayers for you, your family and your church community. I'm sure God has a plan. In his time hun.
Gina my prayers are with you all. This is hard but I promise He has more in store for you soon! -S
awww Gina ((((((big hugs))))) it will be ok, it always seems life throws us curve balls.. but i know you and your family will pull thru like pros.. just remember you are loved :)
Dear Gina and family,
I am sorry about your church closing. Please always always remember that no matter where you go or what you do, God is always with you. Remember memories only fade when we don't keep them alive in our heart and on our mind. I pray that bestowes you and your family with strength, love and peace.
sarahelisebeth Brenham
Gina and boys,
Please know that God does not live in buildings but in our hearts, in our own homes, in the car, and in the air about us. My prayers are with you in this time of real need. Remember that the doors might be closing, but nothing can take or close the thoughts of your memories and love for that church. Memories and heart warming moments will be with you always like God will always be with you.
With tender love and thoughts to you,
Opal and her little man
*HUGS!!!!* This is such a sad thing to happen!! The positive to remember is Faith is always with you and always around you in your family and your friends. This building will live in your memories and in your pictures and your stories. So tell stories show pictures and keep the memory alive.
MUCH LOVE To you and your family *HUGS*!!!
Hey Girl! I am sorry to hear about your church closing:( My thoughts and prayers are with your family. I know change is not good, but yes God does have a plan and right now we just can't see it through the pain, but just remember that when the dust settles you will look back and know it was the best thing. It will take time and tears. But also remember like others have said before me God is in your heart, your life, not in a building. The bible says if two or more are gathered in my name I will be there. Just remember that. Keep your chin up and know you are loved
Gina, I am sorry to hear about your church closing. We are hearing of this more and more these days. I expect the emotions your are feeling are much like losing a loved one. Denial, anger, sadness. All are valid and shouldn't be hidden as they mark the path to acceptance. This is a painful process that is best undertaken sooner than later. With acceptance you may not find answers but will find opportunities.
Everything happens for a reason, it is all part of his plan. Trust that this is how it is supposed to be but don't deny your emotions. There is a lesson in this, perhaps it is to demonstrate the resilience of your faith. We are all works in progress and, as such, are limited in understanding issues so large. This is where our faith comes in. Trust it is part of the plan. Another step in our personal journey. Enjoy the memories that are swirling about like flakes in a shaken snow globe. Cherish them.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Gina.
Just want to give u a big hug and tell u that GOD is always going to protect u in all the ways of your life. He has a bigger plan for u and it is always going to be the best for u he wouldnt give u more than u can hanndle he loves u baby. His love is unconditional and with open loveing arms for u to rest your head on and cry all your pain and sorrow away. He died for that for us and he is always with us nomatter what we are going threw. He is there for u now and watching over u always. You are always in my prayers and my thoughts everyday and I love u and will help u with ANYTHING u ever need. So just want my BEST FRIEND to be happy and never need for anything. That is my wish for u and always. LOVE U TO PEACES HUN!!!
Hi Gina and family, Sometimes things happen in our lives and we wonder why. I lost my Mother ar a very young age and thought why, but I will always remember the poem she would ready to me when times were tough and this poem has made living my life without her a little more comforting and I hope you find it comforting as you remember things change but we all are never alone in tough times.
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you."
Gina and family - i know this will be a difficult and sad time for y'all. Always is when something we hold dear is gone. there is a lpot of good support expressed her for you too. I will amke sure that our Sunday School class know of yuor grief and prays that God will surround you with a sense of His poresence and power. As hard as this is be reminded that He habs promised to never leave or forsake you. As much as 125 years seems liek a permanent thing, it is only a blink in eternity an dyou will have many great times ahead in His presence. Our faith is in the living God and not in things made by men -- even our dear church home. Carry the stong memories an dgrowth in your faith that you have experienced here and go forward. Look in 1 Corinthians 1:3-11 for the encouragement that as you go thru this struggle He will comfort you so that in turn you can be a comfort to someone who needs you to be strong for them in a similar situation. brightest blessings. ks
Gina!!!much love to you and the boys~~~>>This note is for your sons;
Dear sons,
We are here for you and showing you all the love and support you need during this sad time in your lives...But try to always remember that you have a great mom to be there for you..God..and lots of rl and sl friends (SMILE) Everything will be just fine and when one door closes in life GOD always open another for you...so my prayers are with you and your mom so keep smiling and give ya mom a big hug for me ...and here is a big hug for you (HUG)
SMILES AND KISSES AND GOD BLESS WISHES...LOVE ALWAYS,
YOUR NEW FRIEND
"Victoria"
Exoticmali Eames :))))
G, everything happens for a reason. The guy upstairs always has a plan. Its not our place to question it, and we don't need to understand it. But it will all work out. Hugs from your Canadian friend. -Metro-
Dear Gina, I am here for you sweetie and saying prayers for you, your family, and those in your church. It is so sad when something like this happens, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and that while the building may be closing, your memories and the wonderful times you have spent there will always live on in your heart. I am here no matter what. Love, Chris
Dear Gina,
I'm sorry to hear about the Church. I so know how you feel..
This is really a sad time for you...and I want to tell you few things which might help you...
First thing, God will never leave us without support. It doesn’t matter what our present circumstances are, He will always be there for us, through prosperous times, and through real hardship. We can be satisfied with what we have when we know who we are in Christ. When we know that, despite what we may lack in worldly possessions, we will know that God will never give us up. He will never fail us or leave us helpless. He promises that.
If you are going through a hard time right now, just know that God has not abandoned you – He is with you every step of the way – and He will bring you through.
Our Lord has promised this to us
That He will never leave, fail or give us up. God will never leave his children.
Gina, you are never alone, no matter how you feel or what anyone says, there are people who understand and stand by your side, whether you see them or not..
Remember: "It's not over til God says it's over...The situation is just a temporary inconvenience for permanent improvement."
All my Love and lots of blessings to you and your family..Hugs Lady Elena
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